Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Jealousy...or just HATE? can't quite guess it..

so i think my problem is pretty common: people hating you and don't hide it, being picked on no matter what i do, or how i act...being fucked basically:D

so i'm very proud of myself for not cutting my wrists aaand for not throwing myself out from my 2 floor apartment ...i've done good these past..9 months or so(?)

oh my, i'm having a déjà-vécu! jap school from 3rd grade to 6th.
i find that girls here get meaner and faker with each and everyday.
so easily put, i'm reliving the hell i used to consider "school".

hey on the bright side, i've only got one more month of torture:) let's see if i survive another couple of weeks of being forced to challenge myself to jump off a bridge!


Girls (with a capital "g")
there are several types of them:
-bitches who deliberately do mean stuff
-those who quietly talk behind your back
-those who feel ashamed but still do those things
-girls who see/hear mean stuff being done/said and who do nothing about it
-AND those who prefer to stay out of the way.

and exceptions.

i'm not victimizing myself. just happy it's almost over. i hope that next year i'll be able to start fresh..and leave my troubles behind.