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IM OBSESSED❤ LOSERS ROCK. hahah:P

sweet 14..

these should be the best years of my adolescence. first love experiences, discovering new things, meeting new people.

NONE of this concerns me.

Love (with a capital L)-people say love is blind. well love might be but not me. i see things the way they are. im kind of like an X-ray machine. i see flaws. I'm not saying that i need perfection and that i don't accept flaws. NO! i don't accept flaws that are unacceptable. lol

anyways. ...i have liked some boys when i was little and i've had guys that occupied 90% of my mind before...but thats not love!!

....i find every single guy i meet IM-MA-TURE. just simply immature. i can't help it. so what i'm tryin' to say is that there is a VERY slight chance of me getting a boyfriend before i'm 17...or so.

and im not the problem here. there are guys who like me..i mean

1.im pretty pretty(..it doesn't make sense does it? xD) im not bragging but...you know, im definitely NOT "unattractive" im not curvy though...

2. i'm not stupid (four languages people! 5 with a tiny bit of spanish)

3. i'm not a hoe

but somehow guys are just more attracted to outgoing girls....even if they're stupid and not-so attractive...and slutty. so my love-life SUCKS IT.

AND my school life SUCKS IT.

conclusion: ...FML!! (ok that isn't so much of a conclusion but..)

Math..Logic

Why isn't life like math? It constitutes of logic. and as far as i know life ISN'T logical. kind of like french grammar. lol

but seriously if we could make conclusions in life based on math rules, wouldn't it be so much easier? kind of like 1+2=3

if we could "calculate our way through life" (:P) wouldn't it be awesome?

just a simple question...haha

NO, NO AND NO!

NO i cannot joke and laugh all the time, NO i cannot be energetic all the time, AND NO i cannot be fun all the time.

YES i like talking about serious things, i DO get frustrated and tired easily and finally YES i can be vulnerable and fragile, im a girl after all...

8th grade's the worst. people around me laugh like idiots FOR no reason. they gossip about things that don't change a thing in our lives just to have another subject for another meaningless conversation...basically i'm sometimes obligated to fake my laugh. im sick of faking...i think all of my adolescence will be like this. me faking....
 
to say the truth..i've never felt REALLY happy. except maybe for several years of my life...my school life was never good.  ruined.

what can i do to change my lifestyle? in this tiny miniscule town...
plus the thing's that i know the answer to my question. i have to work, and work hard to get out of here. my god i hate it when everything is up to me.


everything happens for a reason. i know that, i believe that. i only hope it's true..

BANANA isn't happy:/

it's such a shame, no one gets my humor. maybe except for my best friend but really no one does.

i know i have a "dark" sense of humor but goshhh play along or something. don't make ME feel retarded....please.

omg this blog has become a place where i just come and complain. actually it's workin' out great for me:) heheh

UUURGGGHH IMMATURE IDIOTS!! lol (i put lols to make my sentences less serious)


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small addiction

..why do i always fall for people who aren't available? this feeling...desire for something that you can't have...or someone..kills me.

great. feeling sad has officially become one of my daily routines..

:'( :'( :'(

thoughts..

i just want to stop thinking..worrying or carying.

don't you have times where you just want to forget eeeverything in the world, re-start from the beginning?

i feel so numb...wait can you say that? cause when you're numb you aren't supposed to FEEL. ugh im so confused. SEE? IM STILL THINKING!